Baby Love!

Time to show Baby BOY some LOVE on the blog!!! I have not been neglecting him just been trying to get caught up with life! HA! Anyways, so... like you read IT IS A BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brian and I were both shocked and so excited when the ultrasound tech said... well guys do we want to find out what this baby is. We immediately said yes... both thinking girl! And there on the screen was his little man part and he was shining it ever so brightly and happily!! HAHA!! No shame in his game!! HAHA! Brian was proud!! I immediately started crying due to shock factor and excitement!!! I say shocked because the whole pregnancy I have been thinking girl (but I have always wanted at least one girl and one boy)! Just because I have been really sick and pretty much felt the same that I felt with Vera Kate. Also his little heart rate has been high. Brian thought girl also! Well throw out every old wives tail because this baby is a BOY!!!! We are soooooooo excited and over-JOYED!!!!!! Time to figure out the JOYS of parenting a little boy!!

Well, the story is only beginning! HA! This weekend has been quite the doozy! Let me explain so... on Friday at the ultrasound the tech is just moving right along and finding all the little things she needs to check off the list as healthy. And then she gets to BB (baby boy's) heart. She notices that yes there are four chambers but she cant seem to find his very important aortic arch. He was giving her a run for her money due to his positioning. After searching for what seemed like an eternity, she looked at me very seriously and said I cant find what I am looking for with his heart therefore I cant determine that everything is ok. I think you need to be referred to a specialist. By the way... words you NEVER want to hear. So she went and got my doctor and explained to her what was going on. At this point I am in shock/blur mode. Brian is handling the situation much better than me! Dr. Williams comes in and explains that since we were not able to determine and find the aorta(which is very important) it is necessary to be referred to a specialist. She said we will try to get you an appointment ASAP but we just cant determine that this baby's heart is normal until you see a specialist. And as we are walking out the door, she looks at me and says DONT LOOK ON THE INTERNET... Dr.'s orders! YEAH RIGHT! HA!

Anyways, as you can imagine I was scared, devastated, and every other emotion you would feel if you had just heard these words. So we left the doctor and of course I LOST it. Cried pretty much the whole entire day. Questioning, praying, and trying to wrap my mind around it! Brian on the other hand was fine and thought for sure she could not see it because of positioning but kinda got a little nervous because I was nervous. The nurse/worry wart in me came out and I just knew that ultrasound tech was certain she did not see what she was looking for and therefore we had a major problem on our hands.

Friday afternoon the nurse called to tell me that we had an appointment Monday at 1pm. This meant waiting a WHOLE weekend! Thanks to many prayers I began to feel a PEACE that is unexplainable. On Friday I was just in shock and kinda out of it. My sweet mom tried to distract me and we went to lunch and of course she and my dad encouraged me like none other. On Saturday, Amanda came up and hung out to help pass the time! Such a blessing! One I can never thank her enough for! But I tell you folks GOD is good! I got alone with HIM alot this weekend and HE provided me with PEACE like none other! I received an email from Mrs. Sharon with LOTS of verses that I just began to pray over and over. I saw a post on Facebook about trust using the example of Abraham and Sarah. Written just for me. I had never thought about it that way before. I had also just watched a live stream of Passion 2012 where John Piper talked about the supremacy of GOD! Also in a Bible study I was in this fall we discussed Believing GOD at HIS word. So once I collected myself this began to be my prayer... GOD I am BELIEVING YOU!! In the Bible study we talked about how we always say God I am Believing you but... When in reality we need to say GOD I AM BELIEVING YOU TO MOVE THIS MOUNTAIN and DO THIS THING!!!! I am Believing You and I am Believing that we are going to see that aortic arch LOUD AND PROUD! I am BELIEVING that BB's heart is just perfect! So that was my prayer! IT was very hard because YES, SATAN was having a hey-day with my thoughts. But I was trying to take every thought captive and fill my mind with verses! I am telling you HE equipped me with what I needed for this weekend! HE takes such good care of HIS children. A quote that is very popular but I love it... He brought you to it, He will bring you through it!
Of course I am not perfect and it was sooooooo hard to wait. Something I HATE to do! I am very impatient and want to know NOW! This morning before my appointment I had such a PEACE! Very unlike me! I am a huge worry wart! Brian and I both knew that we would be ok with whatever and that HE would see us through but we were BELIEVING HIM for our little man's heart!

So we get to the appointment and the ultrasound tech says I am going to look this baby over really good and then we will look at the heart in detail! So once again BB was showing his man parts LOUD AND PROUD! He would not show us his pretty heart but man oh man he was showing off his manhood! HAHA! Anyways, I had to turn from side to side for her to get all her shots and once she was done with everything else she started on the heart. And I want you to know the very first thing she saw was the AORTIC ARCH!!!!! Coincidence... I think not! She said well the thing they could not see the other day is right there clear as day!!!!!!!!!!!! I mean it was amazing! I wish I could have gotten a pic of that so I could put it in my answered prayer journal. But never fear that image will be in my mind FOREVER!!! Such a beautiful arch!!! And because we were at the specialist she had to check out every nook and cranny of his heart!! ALL WAS GOOD!! Heart rate a strong 163!!!

So my friends GOD IS SOOO GOOD! I know HE was trying to teach me a lesson in Believing Him, trusting, and not doubting. Not to trust in some stupid ultrasound when I know the CREATOR! The one who has HIS hand in there fearfully and wonderfully creating a beautiful baby boy!

"For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Wonderful are Your works, my soul knows it very well." Psalm 139: 13-14.

Would we have been ok if everything had not been ok... well yes of course but that wasnt the point with this lesson! This lesson was about BELIEVING GOD to do what HE says HE can do and Believing HIM for who HE says HE is!!!!! A true testament to HIS FAITHFULNESS!! Our little miracle!!!

Sweet Annie and Papa John took care of Vera Kate lots during this time!! THANK YOU!! Having them live near is another HUGE answered prayer! Vera Kate is sooooooo excited about her baby brother and Bax is excited about having a rough and rumble/tumble little brother! Brian grins from ear to ear about his boy and this little boy has already stolen his momma's heart like none other!!!

WE CANT WAIT!!!
Vera Kate kept wanting me to take her pic with baby brother's sign! She kept saying CHEESE and reaching for the sign!! HAHA!! She is going to be a great BIG SIS!! Brian and I are very blessed to have a great relationship with our brother and sister! We pray that Vera Kate and BB have the same close relationship!! I just LOVED having a brother and Brian LOVEd having a sister!! I am excited for these two little Rays!!!

"Now all glory to God who is able through His mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think." Ephesians 3:20-21